So I thought a little about it… since I’m really bad keeping track of things and I spend almost all day in front of the computer, why not trying a blog?
Even if nobody reads it, so what? I can put my thoughts here and practice my writing in english.
Today! This week, more likely. I’m very weak emotionally because I’m trying to heal this year’s scars. This past few days I’ve been thinking about a friend I held dearly in my heart. This friend without a single world walked away. A friend of his told me that I was important to him and that he preffered to walk away than to hurt me…
Up to this very day I thought of him lowly. I thought “I wasn’t important, he’s just a dick and left me weaker when I needed to be strong” or ” He’s a coward”… well, maybe I still think that he is a dick and a coward; but now I kind of understand why he acted like he did.
I suddenly remembered some talk we had about his relationship with someone else and he said something like “She’s important to me, so I preffer to walk away”. So maybe I can believe what his friend said.
Even though I understand it, I can’t share it; for I’m the kind of person who preffers the naked truth. So I can’t forgive him because it seems that he didn’t knew me at all. Even if he wanted to talk to me again, I won’t be able to accept him, even when I still hold dear the memories I have of our friendship. Why? I needed his friendship and he wasn’t there (I personally hate that shit).
Here’s one tip about friends; some people prefer friendship bounds over all. Don’t think you’re the last coke of the desert or you have a golden dick. And also; people can get confused about fraternal love and couple love.
So this is my silly thought of the day. OMG I wonder if I took a little too much medicine xD For I have this big pimple in my nasal tract and it hurts. Wonder if anybody have had it even once. It’s the worst thing that have happened in my life in a long time >_<